Being Alone
Last I checked, there seem to be more than 6 billion living souls on this planet. Then why is it, that I sometimes feel so alone? Ever since the day I started looking into other people's likes and dislikes, I do not remember a single person whom I could safely assume to be at least more than 90% similar to me! Maybe its because most people I know have entirely different personas when amongst different companies. So it is really difficult to completely know about anybody. Anyways, still I do believe that I should not need a person exactly like me for me to be absolutely comfortable in his company. Then why is it that after a few days or a few weeks I almost always start getting bored of that new friend. Now getting bored is fine, but my reactions are not limited to that, I more often than not start picking out the worst things about that poor guy! And then, slowly the hate process starts to the extent that I can no longer even stand that person's company. Then I look for someone else's time and company, and the story goes on and on. By the way, considering my age, the above should have guarenteed tens and hundreds of new people I would have sought after as my friends till now, but the point is that I usually might go back to the person I would have been some weeks or months and sort of rediscover that person!
Whatever I blabbered above was actually not even remotely related to what I had in mind when I started writing this piece. But anyways, it is sometimes good to let one's thoughts flow back and forth and have a medium with oneself to actually have a record of it all. This is what these damn blogs are all about, aint they?
As an aside, there is so much I wanna do, but the time seems to be running out. Oh God! Please give me the strength to make my dreams come true. I know you have always been with me and will surely continue to so!
Last I checked, there seem to be more than 6 billion living souls on this planet. Then why is it, that I sometimes feel so alone? Ever since the day I started looking into other people's likes and dislikes, I do not remember a single person whom I could safely assume to be at least more than 90% similar to me! Maybe its because most people I know have entirely different personas when amongst different companies. So it is really difficult to completely know about anybody. Anyways, still I do believe that I should not need a person exactly like me for me to be absolutely comfortable in his company. Then why is it that after a few days or a few weeks I almost always start getting bored of that new friend. Now getting bored is fine, but my reactions are not limited to that, I more often than not start picking out the worst things about that poor guy! And then, slowly the hate process starts to the extent that I can no longer even stand that person's company. Then I look for someone else's time and company, and the story goes on and on. By the way, considering my age, the above should have guarenteed tens and hundreds of new people I would have sought after as my friends till now, but the point is that I usually might go back to the person I would have been some weeks or months and sort of rediscover that person!
Whatever I blabbered above was actually not even remotely related to what I had in mind when I started writing this piece. But anyways, it is sometimes good to let one's thoughts flow back and forth and have a medium with oneself to actually have a record of it all. This is what these damn blogs are all about, aint they?
As an aside, there is so much I wanna do, but the time seems to be running out. Oh God! Please give me the strength to make my dreams come true. I know you have always been with me and will surely continue to so!
posted by Anurag Ruhela at 12:37 AM
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